•Sunday, December 05, 2010
Our babies were born 10 weeks early and because of prematurity they had to stay in the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) for sometime. Rianne stayed in the NICU for 62 days while Mikelle for 67 days. Their NICU stay was sure to be a very emotional one, at least for me. NICU parents always describe it as a "Roller coaster ride with its non-stop ups and downs" - a perfect description since I hate roller coasters. I know though that their NICU stay saved my babies' lives and I am VERY VERY grateful for the technology that is available for them and us.
Because of my high blood pressure due to preecclampsia, the doctors had me waited to see my babies from birth until they figured out what was causing my HBP and what medications to give me. I waited until the fourth day just to see my babies who were just one level below my room. Those days were very hard for me. I always got emotional when I thought about them, how close they were yet seemed too far away. I was very jealous when the NICU nurse came into my room and told me what she had been doing for Mikelle and Rianne and to give some reports. Not being able to see them hurt, much more for not being able to touch them, feed them, change their diapers or even watch them as they moved their little hands and feet. It hurt to know that I was helpless at that moment to do anything for my babies, anything that that kind nurse could or even anything that "mother" normally would. I held back my tears and emotions many many times because I was advised to not be emotional and to relax since any level of stress would be bad for my blood pressure reading and I did not want my mom and Carl to worry about me. Those memories still brings back tears to me when I think about them.
Here are some of the videos we took while our babies were in the NICU.
Mikelle: One day old. Here you can get an idea of what the NICU sounds like.
Rianne: Ten days old
Rianne's cute little feet and arm: 10 days old
It was bittersweet taking Rianne home while leaving Mikelle behind. It did really made me feel sad saying goodbye to Mikelle that night.